STUPIDITY: THE NEW WHITE MEAT.

I believe this is consumed and sold more than Colonel Sander's fried chicken meals. We retain it as gold and spread it rampantly to others. More contagious than the big disease with a little name. We receive phone calls about it and allow friends and family members to recite its hypnotic words into our ears without any protection or warning. This horrible outbreak that I am informing you of today is "STUPIDITY". Unfortunately there is no cure for this awful disease, because lately it seems to be attacking everyone around me regardless of race, gender, or age. It seems to seep under door ways, through cracks in the foundation, and the holes on the sides of our heads. The dribble that comes out of people's mouths after they are infected with this disease is astounding: "I LOVE HIM" , "I WANT TO BUY SOMETHING WITH NO MONEY", "I'M TRYING TO DO ME". What the hell is society coming to when we think that this dumb ass behavior is acceptable? Why do others around these stupid folks won't shake some sense into the affected party? Lately this stupid plague has gone onto another level which is above my parameters of understanding. Am I the stupid one? I do understand we should find and do the things that make us happy and rewarded, but its my observation that society feels that living above our means and chasing "THE ONE" that doesn't want us is happiness......WRONG!!! The stupid ones feel that it is acceptable to push your children by the wayside to pursue their dreams to find their bliss.....WRONG AGAIN!!!! Selfishness also seems to be one of the symptoms to the stupidity and also being an extreme opportunist. Not caring about the others around them that matters gets pushed to the background, but only gets recognition if it benefits the diseased stupid person. Slowly but surely I have started distancing myself from the "STUPID ONES", because I have noticed that I started to feel some side effects. The effects have include, but not limited to chronic headaches, sucking of teeth, head scratching, blank stares, and occasional itching of ass (that's the worse!). So I feel the best cure or prevention of "STUPIDITY" is to eliminate the "STUPID ONES" completely from my diet, read some books (good for building back vocabulary and intellect), go to some museums or plays, and maybe listen to some classical music. More importantly if you have kids please take the time to immerse them in culture, positivity, and love. This may help them build up a tolerance against "STUPIDITY". This disease is not a joke. Its dangerous and is slowly allowing our culture and society to become a thing of the past. Intelligence and common sense is rampantly spiralling into extinction. So cover your heads or close your ears, close your doors, and don't answer your phones because the "STUPID ONES" are out to get you!

CAN THE REAL PARENTS PUT YOUR HANDS UP!!!

I just posted today that "IT MUST BE GREAT BEING THE FUN PARENT". I say this with strong sarcasm in my voice and a pissed off look in my face. It must be wonderful to fly down on your magic pony with gifts under both arms every two weeks. Miss out on special occasions and major milestones in their children's life is OK, but as long as their shopping involved you're the best. But the "REAL PARENT" is always here to kiss the boo-boos, check the homework, whoop ass, and be the cheerleader all in one! You may think I am jealous of you "FUN PARENT", but the "REAL PARENT" would appreciate it if you could just step your game up. I'm not talking about more financial contributions, but more parental involvement. Could you please show up for a couple of parent conferences so you may get acquainted with your child's teacher. Could you please be there to clap in the audience at performances and assemblies, so your child may see that you give a damn!. Could you please pick a phone up between the time you come and see them so you may know whats going on in their lives (because kids are people too!). Parenting a child involves more than money, gifts, and junk food, but it also involves discipline, compassion, and teaching. You have to realize "FUN PARENT" you may have divorced the ex, but the kids should not suffer, and your guilt can not be shielded with sugary bribes and brightly covered bows. You have to back up the "REAL PARENT" and show an united front on raising the kids. Showing them that you both care and just want the best for them when you fuss at them about bad grades or their unsavory behavior. Just remember this " FUN PARENT" that the children do grow up and will remember who was in the stands cheering, at the doctor's office holding their hand, chaperoning the field trip, helping with book reports, etc, etc, etc. Endless things that us "REAL PARENTS" do on a daily basis effortlessly without reward or accolades, but I say today "CAN THE REAL PARENTS PUT YOUR HANDS UP!!!!!". Stand up "REAL PARENTS" take a bow and let these 'FUN PARENTS" know how its done.

Home - The Cake Diva

Home - The Cake Diva

DEAR MR. EX..........

Dear Mr. Ex......Though you may have been out of my life for years, you still tend to reappear in my life like a bad, unwanted rash. As much as I try to delete you out of my mental Rolodex, "BAM" there you are again in the most awkward situations. Now don't get me wrong, everything that we shared wasn't all bad, but you are an ex for a reason. We started picture perfect, like a beautiful tan on a beautiful beach, but even sitting in the sun too long can lead to cancer. That's what you turned into...Cancer. Taking over and invading parts of me, consuming me with ugly tumors that only I could see. Dealing with them for a lengthy time spam, because for some reason I thought that I deserved it. Even out of something ugly, there can be beauty......the one we made together and you denied, but that's OK, because it was a wonderful parting gift. And that's what I had to do....part ways and pretend that you did not exist.....like death. But just like a ghost, a spirit of some sort you rise back in my life and haunt me with heartache, hurt, and insanity. This is why I decided to gather all these thought and feeling that have been racing through my head sense the last time we crossed paths. Therefore I say to you Mr.Ex I am officially through with you and the pain that you to bring every time we meet. The thoughts of you makes my stomach ache and the gastric liquids to burn the back of my throat. You're not allowed to haunt me, taunt me, or take anything else from me.......Everything that I have is mine and I won't let you back again. I have taken my hearty dose of therapy to rid me of the toxins that tried to kill me, but I'm still here loving, living, and liking the woman I have grown up to be. I don't wish you harm, but blessings, because without that I won't be able to strive in my growth. Finally as the great Chris Brown so eloquently stated "Deuces"!...........Sincerely Ms.Ex

Is This a New Year?

........HAPPY NEW YEAR!?! Im assuming this a new year, but I am unaware because stupidity is still growing rampant. The woman with too many kids and still waiting for her "Baby Daddy" to get his shit together. The 50 something brotha waiting on that perfect job while living at home with his parenys, and moochin off of them. Then there is the verbally abusive wife who treats her man like shit when he's only trying to do his best for her. Promiscuous teenage girls giving it up so freely as if they are getting something good on return, besides an itchy crotch! What is so happy about this year so far......Another day, another dollar. Trying to survive in a world that makes no sense what so ever. Confusion sets in as it gets crazier and crazier......GOTS TO DO BETTER!!!!!

What to do?

What to do when your mind tells you to do one thing and your heart tells you to do another? This is the most confusing and the most difficult thing you can face. The heart is supposed to be your guide for love, but for some reason it always steers you in the wrong direction. Then your mind is the most sensible part in this equation, but you tend not to listen to it at all!!! So what do you think you are suppose to do. I would usually have the answer for this and everything else, but this just leaves me stumped and perplexed. Lately predicaments beyond my control have left me in such an emotional stupor that I don't know what I am supposed to do......listen to the heart or the mind? Thinking that my life was in this perpetual bliss and I had nothing to worry about....boy was i so wrong! Everything that I had or have gave me such an artificial safety net, that it has turned me upside down and back around. The confusion that I am facing daily makes my head hurt and my butt itch at the same time....don't know what end to console. Don't really have no one to turn to or confide in, because I am usually the counselor everyone comes to with their bullshit problems and mishaps. No one bothers to ask whats going on in my life that got me so down in the dumps. I guess that is expected when you put up a portrayal of the one who has it all together. I give myself a false sense of a fantasy reality. I guess this blogs intention is just to vent and to let myself know that I can feel again, and I will be all right. To see it written down is like my cheap form of therapy. It's a temporary fix, but I know I am strong enough to hold my own and will be able to know how to find the difference between my heart and my mind.........teaching me to know what to do.

When you are lost in love.......

What do you do to pull yourself out? In so deep that you can't climb or dig yourself up out of the grave of despair. You claim this is where you want to be, or at least you convince yourself that it is right. But you know deep down in your heart that it is toxic and now you are tainted, and somewhat undesirable. Undesirable to the next one....the one that may reciprocate the same wonderment about what love really is. The one that would get lost with you and won't want to escape. The rapture of the two of you experiencing this "surrender-free" kind of love. So how lost do you have to be in order to be able to release yourself from the bondage of heartache........Just wanted to know.

Friends?

Why are friendships so hard to maintain? Give you a headache and a ulcer all at the same time? I sit thinking about a friendship that means the world to me, but sometimes being in this "relationship" makes my ass itch! I love her so much, but I don't understand her logic about how she thinks my availability is suppose to be for her. Like, why does she feel I can drop what I'm doing for my family and run and do for hers. Now, this is mainly my fault, because I have allowed this to happen on numerous occasions. I love her dearly, but sometimes I feel like we are dating and I'm not even getting fucked! Is this considered a normal friendship or am I just exception? I think my biggest problem with friends is that I don't know how to say "No". I also have a bad problem or guilt with hurting some one's feelings. But in the long run my feelings don't even get considered and I' the one who ends up hurt ( go figure?).

So I ask God for guidance and direction to handle my friends better. I ask others for advice and they tell me I don't need friends, because it's too much trouble. I find it hard to except that advice, because I love the companionship of friends and I hate to be alone. So it seems like I need some professional help to analyze my brain and get it together!

Well I've kind of secluded myself from close relationship for about a month to get myself together. I will continue to pray and hope things will get better for me and my friends.

Please......Can The Real Women Stand Up!

I just want this to go out to the "girls" who call themselves "women" and really don't live up to the title. I know I usually go hard on the men, but we as "women" are the foundation that create these problems with men, so I'm calling out these so called women. I'm just sick of these conversations with these women that have nothing intelligent to say, and nothing comes out of their mouth but gobs and gobs of mindless dribble. Then that is topped off with repetitive talks about sorry husbands, dumb-ass baby-daddies, bad ass kids, and excuses why they can't do better in their life! I'm sick of it , because I am aware there are problems in life (Lord knows I have them too!), but I feel real women find ways to fix it or take advice from another older, wiser, or more experienced women.

A lot of things we as women go through is so self inflicted that it ridiculous! If I could create a list or rules for a "girl" to follow to develop into a woman I think it would go as follows:

1.) STOP SLEEPING WITH THESE SORRY ASS MEN AND CREATING AND RE-CREATING CHILDREN WITH HIM; THAT WILL NOT WIN YOU A LIFETIME OF LOVE.

2.) TAKE CARE OF YOUR OWN DAMN KIDS. IT IS NOT THE GRANDMOTHER'S RESPONSIBILITY TO GIVE YOU A BREAK. SHE ALREADY RAISED HER KIDS.....NOW GO AND RAISE YOURS!!!!

3.) SHOW SOME RESPECT FOR YOURSELF AND STOP GIVING THE "POOTIE" AWAY SO QUICKLY AND THINKING YOU'RE GOING TO GAIN SOMETHING FROM THESE MEN. LET HIM TREAT YOU, WINE AND DINE, AND SEE WHAT HE'S ABOUT FIRST. REAL MEN DON'T LIKE HOS!!!

4.) MAKE PLANS FOR YOUR FUTURE SO IT MAY INFLUENCE AND HELP FUTURE GENERATIONS; ESPECIALLY YOUR KIDS.

5.) STOP SURROUNDING YOURSELF WITH THESE NEGATIVE, HATING, JEALOUS NAGS YOU THINK ARE YOUR FRIENDS, BUT YOU KNOW IN YOUR SPIRIT THEY AIN'T 'BOUT SHIT!!!!

6.) 25 SHOULD BE THE AGE LIMIT FOR YOU TO HAVE THE EXCUSE TO BE THAT "STUPID CHICK"! YOU SHOULD HAVE A GOOD HEAD ON YOUR SHOULDER BY THEN AND MISTAKES ARE NOT MISTAKES NO MORE, BUT JUST DUMB!!!!

7.) LISTEN TO THE ADVICE OF THE PEOPLE THAT HAS COME BEFORE YOU. THEY HAVE MADE THE MISTAKES ALREADY SO YOU MAY NOT HAVE TO EXPERIENCE IT.

8.) LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF! IF YOU WON'T DO IT.....WHO THE HELL ELSE WILL!?!

9.) DON'T BE ON THE HUNT FOR A MAN, B/C SEARCHING WILL ONLY GIVE YOU A "BABY BOY". A GOOD MAN WILL FIND YOU WHEN YOU LEAST EXPECT IT.

10.) EVEN THOUGH THIS IS THE LAST RULE, IT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT TO FOLLOW AND THAT'S GOD. PUT HIM FIRST AND EVERYTHING ELSE WILL FALL INTO PLACE!

What about your friends.......?

Remember back in the day when you had that crew you use to hang so hard with.......go to the movies, walk the mall, hang in the bathroom, and have endless sleepovers. What happen to those days when having your girls around was a do or die situation, when it seemed like your whole life revolved around them? Now you're over 30 and have popped out two or three kids, and it seems like friends are far and few between. Adult relationships are not as genuine as when you were younger. Adult friendships are so one sided and are more based on status and what you can offer. No matter where you came from in your younger years, we just dressed her up in all our clothes so she wouldn't feel left out, and head out to the skating rink and have a good time! Yeah, there were some instances when there was the classic backstabbing in the circle, but these grown bitches are much more vicious! They are jealous, want what you got, and talk shit about you because you got it. Hell, they'll take your man!

I want to have those group of friends that I see on TV, like Joan on girlfriends or Samantha on Sex In The City. Why don't these sassy group of women exist in my world? I want to strap on my stilettos and grab a Cosmo or have brunch and a Mimosa with my besties. I need to have the group of women to rally together when my heart is broken and we gather around the kitchen table like Blanche and the Golden Girls to eat cheesecake at midnight. Where is my Rose?! Well, I've decided to hold auditions for three women to play the roll of my besties, my crew, my friend and a confident. You will have to be that do or die chick , crazy like Left Eye, sexy like Chilli, and cool like T-boz type of women. I will let you know the place and date of the audition later on.....get your shit together!

The Cookie Has Crumbled......The New Year Begins!

2009 brought a lot of happiness, heartache, and pain. But believe me the good has definitely out weighed the bad. God has taken things and loved ones away from me, but has blessed me with abundance beyond belief. I wish I could just sum it up in one solid lump, but too much too express. I wanted to have a pity party when things got rough, but he wouldn't allow me to do nothing but rejoice in his greatness and glory. Besides blessing me with two healthy, marvelous kids, he gave me someone so great that I can't believe what I have. A great man who tends to all my needs and desires before i even wish or imagine it. I love this with every part of my being that sometimes it hurts......now that's complicated. It's like having all your dreams come true and not knowing what to do with them........Rejoice and be glad in it ( that's what my Father keeps telling me. ).

So 2010 holds the question of," What do you do next?". I feel like I have everything that I ever wanted and more. God has blessed my family in ways beyond my dreams. Well, if I have my dreams and desires, I wish for you who reads this today to start by having your wishes come true. Your goals to be met, that man to enter your life, turn the key in your new house, crank up your dream car, land that perfect job. Its yours, its out there, go get it! I prayed it.......it will happen sooner than you think. Happy New Year!

Too Much Drama Momma!

I can honestly understand why an ex is called an ex. They come around to drop your kids off and you don't get that twinge of delight when you all were 1st together. You look down on him like he is the lowest form of " what ever " on earth! You try to look back on why in the hell you were with this loser in the 1st place. Then you look at the images of yourselves that you two created together, you then remember ( or try to remember ) what you had was once special. But that too subsides, because this idiot opens his mouth and nonsense dribbles out of it like droll on a bib! Telling you what he can't do, what he won't do, and what he think he needs to do. Just can't understand that both of you are supposed to be the parents, supposed to be the adults,.........but one of you are clearly doing his own thing!

Why are you responsible for reminding him about whats going on the kids lives, when he can just as easily show some initiative and call 1st. He doesn't know the teachers name, what their grades look like, or what time they even get out of school. Its so obvious that he is clueless about how great "your" kids are and how much they are growing up between the two weeks he doesn't call or come by. He just show up every 2ND and 4Th weekend out the month to "hang-out" with them. Feels that as long as he does that and give you that piece of a check once a month he is a good Dad. WRONG!!! You are just a part time father who shows up at a scheduled time and leave all the real parenting to be put solely on the real, hard working mothers. We can do it all, but the kids need more than one parent, especially when both are available. Mothers can't show boys to be men and mothers can't show girls the proper way men should treat women. It takes a father, a real father to help give life lessons that mothers can't do alone. But unfortunately we have done alone, our mothers have done it alone, .....shit, some of our grandmothers have done it alone! When in the hell are we going to be able to brake this repetitive cycle of sorriness, laziness, and and all around "LESS"! I don't understand how a man could be happy with his self being nothing, because I know personally my biggest accomplishment in life is giving life. You could never take that away, because it will always remain strong with me. So you men that are fathers who don't live with their kids, you need to man up and wake up......BECAUSE THIS MOMMA IS TIRED OF THE DAMN DRAMA!

The " U Suck! " Campaign

I have thought long and hard about this and thought it was time to start my official " U Suck!" Campaign. With all the constant calls and confiding from my friends and family bombarding me on a daily basis about the dumb-ass people in their life. These people that are around and only effect them in a negative and in appropriate way. We may have slept with this person, made some babies with them, and for some reason they are still the same idiots they have always been. This person can also be that annoying family member that quite frankly " Ain't worth a shit ", don't have a job, and always free loading from you. These people will be automatically entered into the " U Suck! " Campaign. I will be allowing people to enter names of any " sucky-ass " person who doesn't contribute any thing positive to society, sucks the air out of the room every time they enter, and brings nothing but destruction every time they come through. After you submit the name of your " sucky-ass " person I will put them into the "U Suck! " Campaign database, and send them an official letter from me. The letter will read as follows: Dear ( insert name here ),

You Suck!!!

Sincerely,
Sherrian Thecakediva Brown

Please do not hesitate to send me your " sucky-ass " person's address, email address, facebook, myspace, or twitter info to me @sherrianbrown@yahoo.com to get the official " U Suck " Campaign started off right!

Is Your Happiness Real?

The glitz, the glam, the money......But are they really happy? Celebrities have everything that money can buy and you wonder why they are alcoholics, addicted to drugs, and having nervous breakdowns. They have everything, but is it happiness? Is it the smile you put on your face when you enter work when you clearly hate you job. Is happiness the way you cuddle in bed with your significant other when you know you can't stand their ass! Or maybe happiness is a mystery that has not yet been discovered, floating around in the cosmos awaiting for some one to make it real.......genuine.

Someone on the outside may think your life is so perfect, that you got it going on, that you are " Happy ". It may be an appearance and your " happiness " is just not real. Sometimes I think this unsolved thing may not even exist. It may be just the thing that keeps us from being complete, whole. But we want it, because we work so hard to get it. Working a 40 hour shitty-ass job because it pays the most, to buy the things you always wanted, and not being able to enjoy it because your at work. So you continue to buy these " things " that you feel will make you happy.....but it doesn't work.


I look at the Travel Channel from time to time and its this show with these two guys who go to these remote villages to stay with these primative tribes. The people live off the land, hunt their food, and walk around among each other naked and free. No electricity, technology, or modern amenities. They just have each other and I think thet are genuinely happy. So maybe we need to give it all up; the nice house, the car, and the rest of the luxuries and go to find happiness. Because I think what we are doing right now is not working!

CHALLENGE!

I just want to challenge everyone today to be the best " you " that you can be. I say this as I am sitting in the jury selection room at the courthouse. We sit here looking at this video about the importance of serving on jury duty. Stating that it is a privilege, just not a right. How so many people, especially women and people of color were unable to even provide this service. So I challenge those in the " blog-o-sphere " to stand up for something to make a difference or an impact for you or someone around you. Even if it's as simple as saying, " Good morning " to the person you pass on the street. Volunteer at your kid's school, and come up with some ideas to make improvements instead of always complaining. Take the time to plan a healthy meal for your family, instead of grabbing something on the go. Set the table and ask your kids, " How was your day? ". You would be surprised to what they have learned and seen through the day.

If you haven't had the time to spend with your " Hunnie " lately, plan a romantic night. If money is an issue, plan something at home. Light some candles, uncork a $5 bottle of wine, and cook a sexy meal that will get that person in a sexy mood!

I challenge you today by calling someone that's important in your life to say, " I love you ". You would be thrilled to see what kind of impact you will have on some one's day. Love has a way of doing that to people!

I challenge you to enjoy life today. Regardless of what trials and tribulations you may be going through lately.......Just step back, take a breath and thank God for allowing you to live upon this earth another day. This is your day! I challenge you to claim it and make it great!

Baby Boys.......

Would it be too bold of me to tell these " Baby Boys " to get the tit out their mouth and grow the fuck up! Stop cryin' bout shit and askin for the pacifier and learn how to be men. We women learn this shit at an early age, but for some reason " Baby Boys " don't ever realize when they have children and get over the age of 21 its time to man up! I'm shouting out so loud today, b/c I am sick of friends and associates confiding, crying to me about these sorry " Baby Boys " who fell it's too much for them to particapate in the real world and take up the role of " The Grown-Up ".

The worst thing about the epidimic of the " Baby Boy " is that alot of these women are guilty of hendering their growth, b/c they occasionally sneak them the bottle. Missing their mommies, they don't want them to stray back home, the women in their lives will bribe them with gifts and money for fear of them leaving. " Baby Boy " doesn't even have a job and you want to reward this bum! You have about three of your own children to take care of, but do you realy need a fourth? This is the thing I don't get about the " Baby Boy " is that he feels comfortable taking from the single mothers and their baby mommas without any conscience. I just don't get it!

So my message to the " Baby Boys " out there hanging out in there momma's crib being the victim .......GET THE FUCK UP!!!!! TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, YOUR KIDS, AND YOUR WOMAN! STOP TAKING ADVANTAGE OF THESE DESPERATE WOMEN WHO YOU KNOW HAVE LOW SELF ESTEEM AND AN UNHEALTHY FEAR OF BEING ALONE! STOP THINKING THAT YOUR GOOD LOOKS, SWEET TALK, AND BIG DICKS WILL GET YOU WHATEVER YOU WANT. YOU NEED A JOB, HARD WORK, AND A PERSONALITY TO GET THE THINGS THAT YOU WANT IN LIFE. THEN I WANT TO SHOUT OUT TO THE WOMEN ( MOTHER'S INCLUDED ) THAT PUT UP WITH THERE BULLSHIT.......STOP IT!!!!!!!

Mommy Dearest

You grow up all your life to respect your parents. Esecially your mother.....Mommy Dearest. When you were younger you would always obey even if you knew in your heart she was dead wrong! You grow older into the rebellious teen that would fight her tooth and nail to prove she is wrong. She was your worst enemy and you didn't care about her feelings or calling her out on her bullshit. You want freedom and excitement in your life, so you decide to move out on your own to explore the world around you. The world that she sheilded you from, the world she spent her life trying to protect you from. So you're out there on your on and for some reason you think you met the perfect guy. The true love of your life that you just had to go against her wishes and move in together. Ofcourse things start off great, but things come to a head and he leaves and you end up pregant. Your alone, naked, and vulnerable. But she comes to your rescue and brings you back in like the " Prodical Daughter ". Gives you love, food, and shelter. All the things a good mother is supposed to do for her child.

Years past and you grow into an older, more mature adult that has gained her independence in a legitimate way. You and your mom may not be the best of friends, but you tolerate each other. She still tries to tell you what to do, but now you have learned how to be respectful. This is what you do when you are grown, raising kids, and trying to stay married. You're grateful to your mother, but you still think you should make your own decisions......your own mistakes. How old do you have to be before your mom considers you an adult. I know from time to time you slip, stumble, and occasionally fall. But I thought a parent's job is to pick us up and to dust us off and kiss the boo-boos. Regardless of how you feel about their decisions, you should be happy for them when they're happy. Be that cheering section when they have made a major accomplishment in their life. Be that listening ear when they need it ad try not to be so damn critical! Mommy Dearest we need you in the worst way regardless if we're 2, 30, or 100! Mommy Dearest we need you to hold our hands, not to beat us over the back with a wire hanger!

Starting A New.....

This year has been a world wind adventure that has taken flight in the most positive way. I lost almost 170lbs of grotesque weight that I have been trying to get rid of for years! But in the mist of it all I gained the weight back in the shape of a slim, dark, mocha shake. He has been the leader, the pilot, and the provider of this all expense paid adventure he has been taking me on for the last 3 yrs. He even purchased my very 1st car last Christmas.....my 1st car @ the age of 30 yrs old! ( can you imagine that!!! )

He's been that person I can talk to when so many have turned their back and I just want to celebrate his awesome deliciousness!!!! OK, I just had a moment....I'm back. Now I'm on my way to moving into my 1st house with him and my 2 children thanks to him wanting to give me the things I never had in my marriage. But now I tell everyone that we are buying a house together and they want to know " When is the wedding? ". Why do we feel that marriage is the answer to complete happiness? This is something I felt I needed to be complete back in my twenties, but now that I'm older I think I truly believe I know what happiness is. Don't get me wrong, if he asked me I would probably not hesitate to say yes, but I want it to be natural, organic, real.

Growth is also responsible for my trip into the right direction. Surrounding myself with positivity and light, and letting nothing and no one stand in the way of my dreams. Realizing that working for others is not for me, but taking the initiative to take a serious leap on my own.

Keep your dreams up front to guide your vessel and happiness and bliss will just be around the corner........